Tuesday, February 9, 2010
When our mind is right , the world is right...
For many of us, weight was the convenient reason for everything that was crappy in our life or the best place to levy blame for anything that didnt turn out as we wished. Not saying that weight does not hinder life, but when looking around at our thin friends, did we not see that their lives were also filled with dropping cell phones into puddles, cancellation of insurance because of forgetting to put the check in the mail, money woes, lack of deserved promotions, kids not turning out well, and marital discord?
It may take years but one day it becomes possible to separate the issue of weight from issues with life. After nearly ten years has passed since my bariatric surgery and I am only just now able to put my hands around my old life as it was. I loved the life I had before I had my surgery, but as I grew larger during a time of great stress and upheaval, what I saw in the mirror no longer matched the photo in my head. Then I began to dislike myself and it unraveled from there.
I am now safe and secure in my world. When I feel insecure or frightened, I tend to pad my body with weight as a form of protection. I acknowledge that at these times, there is something going on in my life that is making me feel insecure. I can fight fat for 20 years and still be fat because I have not dealt with the underlying cause. As a bariatric post op, I have learned that it is better to put the weight issue aside and work on the other issue first - the pattern that says 'I need protection, I am insecure'.
The cells in my body are still responding to my mental patterns and if I dont eat right, weight goes on. When the need for the protection is gone, or when I start feeling secure, the fat will melts off by itself with the aid of my surgical tool.
What I choose to think today will start creating my new body for tomorrow.
posted by Susan Maria of BariatricEating.com @ 8:54 AM
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